So There Is The Past and The Present Right

This morning, Gaanz had to make a visit to pathology. Blood test. She's got leprosy but she's still in denial. I had the great pleasure of flippin through a Womans Weekly from ...get this....1989. Twenty years ago. The good ol days. I learnt, that cigarette advertising was allowed once, and not only was it allowed, but also smoking reduces your fitness. Wow. See, if I had read that magazine twenty years back, I would be a lot fitter than I am right now. How bout this lil gem of a giveaway......if you buy a carton of Fortune Cigarettes, you get a free wine glass. Now thats a bargain. And something useful. Everyone smokes more when they drink wine. I saw pics of Bob and Hazel Hawke, apparently they were married way back before those disastrous terry cloth dressing gown pics of he and Blanche! The things you learn. Nicole Kidman interview and why she is saying NO to going to HOllywood. Whoa, that one didnt last long.

Which got me to thinking, twenty years ago??? What was I doing? I was still in school, lusting after the one true love of mylife. The one I would just die without. The one who's heart was made just to fit right into place with mine. The one, who it turns out, wasnt the one at all. The one, who it also turns out, ws a bastard. And there we have it people. For twenty years now I have been dating bastards. The past and the present have fully joined together, I have not come full circle. I am still dating bastards. I started by dating bastards, and Ive not stopped dating bastards. Im obviously doing something wrong. So I spoke to Jayne this morning. Jayne is well aware I only love fabulous, and I only love it from afar. Jayne went all mushy on me. Very unusual for Jayne, and I did not see that coming. Jayne said I should stop sitting on the fence and safely loving from afar. Jayne said I should give some poor guy a chance. Jayne said, Jayne said, Jayne said. Jayne said it might be time to keep my cookie in the cookie jar, and take my heart out to play instead. Jayne says I safely keep my distance from those people I do love and I do a great job of it, by not ever allowing it to happen anyway. What if Jayne is right? I hope not, she would be completely unbearable if she was. I dont even know why Im friends with her.