So I Got A Text This Morning

Which is good, because I was sitting right by the phone NOT waiting for a contact from my date of last night. It said, Good MOrning, so what happend last night?

What happened last night? WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT? Well buddy you were a complete tosser and ever so freaking rude to me. Ive no idea whats up your ass. How can you possibly have such a good night, laughing and talking , a little flirting with a beautiful intoxicating woman like me *hey they are your words mate I aint just makin this crap up* and hit on her with intent, then announce you dont want to see me on a permanent regular basis.....What do you mean what happened last night?? See, if you hadnt of snogged me, I could understand. Possibly you just didnt find me attractive. *get some damn glasses im hot*. I could understand if I had been the one doing all the hitting on you, because perhaps you were just being too polite to turn me down. BUT IT WASNT ME. IT WAS YOU. YOu came onto me. And not just the once either. I know its not cos Im a sucky kisser. Im an awesome kisser. And I'll kiss anyone who doesnt think so just to prove it. Except Jayne. Why am I even friends with her? So mate, how bout you tell me what the hell happened last night???? Which part of your meat eating vegetarian pious prius driving buddhist self with a raging hard on thought saying you didnt want to see me on a regular permanent basis was going to be the beautiful ending to a beautiful night??

Obviously I didnt say any of that. To him at least. Gawd knows Ive said it plenty enough times around here, but I didnt say any of that to him. Why? Theres no point. I dont want to have to plead my case. Beg for his attentions. Be all desperate and down on myself worrying if im all inadequate or decidedly unpretty. If he isnt interested, then he isnt interested and no amount of going in to it is going to change his mind. Or his non intentions. So I texted him back. I said.....I had a great time right up til you said you didnt want to see me on a permenent regular basis, it made me uncomfortable and I went home.

He texted me back again.....remember that whole paragraph up there about how no amount of toing and froing was going to change his mind anyway? How much of a prophecy was that. He texted back with....Fair enough, your right that is how I feel.

Which successfully left me feeling all inadequate and decidedly unpretty. Im so glad Im not even friends with him. Cos as much as I wonder why Im even friends with Jayne, she never makes me feel inadequate or decidedly unpretty.